Thursday, June 11, 2009

2 lbs down!

Okay, so 2 lbs is reallly realllly not that BIG of a deal.. but it's day 4 on my diet.. and I lost 2 lbs!!! That's exciting for me, becuase I am SOO over this body. Please, tell me some of you guys have just gotten to the point where you r like disgusted with how you let yourself go? That's how I've been feeling lately, but instead of being bummed about it.. I decided to DO something about it. So I am taking one day at at time.. and just going with it. Right now I am finishing my first shipment of Nutrisystem and adding produce and fresh fruit to it. I'm still debating on ordering a second box though.. so we will see. They charge $50 dollars to cancel. I kind of think I just want to order the 2nd box and then cancel and see what happens. That will be 2 months until my wedding and 2 months of the food. How does that sound? I'm also thinking of adding ALLI to it as well.. because none of the food I eat is over 10 grams of fat each meal. The only problem with that is that if you don't eat right it may have "Side effect" and those are not too pretty, if you know what I mean. (Warning: TMI) and with all the spinach, salad, broccoli, etc that I have been eating.. I am already regular, if you know what I mean :) A little too regular, which makes me nervous for when I find a job, but oh well. So I don't want the side effects to clash adn me be miserable. Have any of you tried Alli before? What did you get out of it? Also, I learned something about myself yesterday, that I sort of already knew but... I'm an emotional eater. I eat when I'm bored, stressed, sad, etc. You name it, I eat it lol. So yesterday, my fiance and I got in our first major fight (Which is pretty darn good considering we've been dating for almost 2 years!) And I was a hot mess, I was stressed and sad and crying and just a mess. Before all this though, I had my motto of I am NOT starving myself, that never ever works for me. I was one of those kids growing up that if you told me no.. I 'd do it anywase and do it more! So I dont starve myself because then I would just want that bite of whatever more than I did before.
Does that make sense?
So anywayse.. back to the story. My lovely father brought home Popeye's Chicken! I was fine, because I dont like there mac n cheese and that's normally what I would have wanted to take a bite out of. But then the aroma of fried chicken filled the house.. and I was crying and stressed and what not. So instead of taking one bite, I had a whole chicken drumstick. Which I probably should not have had because I was eating it for the wrong reasons... but I already knew I was an emotional eater.. What I had learned from that is.. I didn't eat the whole bucket because I didn't let me emotions take over. I just had one piece and ok, that's fine. Then went on with it... Normally I would have probably grabbed a few pieces and wallowed in my emotions. But not anymore :) So that was sort of an accompishment for me. Not to mention, calorie wise.. it ended up working out because I went to my lil sister, Kameko (sister from another mister's :) graduation so I forgot to eat dinner. Case closed :) Do you guys go through emotional eating? OR stages like that? How do you get through them?? Well I am still in search of a job.. but like I said before I know the Lord will provide for me. So I have been doing all I can but in the meantime.. I'm focusing on me. I'm working out and eating healthy and getting to where I need to be. I did the 30 day shred on Monday and it kicked my butt.. so I havent done it since ;) But I am going to go walk to my cousins house to visit which is like 1.5 miles away. So I am slowly trying to add exercise into the daily routine. But keep my job situation in your prayers!! I NEED A JOB. Have a good day! Tell me what you think about all this :) Love ya guys! Oh, and PS Matt and I got through our first fight just fine and we are better now than we were before, if that is possible :)


  1. I feel ya on the disgusted with myself thing. I just came to a point where I was like, " this what you wanna feel like all of the time?". And I changed my life. It just clicked. For sure, I am not on plan 100% of the cream has been my friend lately :) I have tried losing weight many, many times. The difference this time is that I've realized that the changes I make have to be ones that I can do forever...which is daunting at first, bc my favorite foods were not the most healthy, but as I go, I realize I want to treat my amazing body/self amazingly.
    I'll be hoping for a great job opportunity for you. And, the inevitable first fight does bring people closer, doesn't it :)

  2. I understand what you mean too. I just woke up one day and realized...I'm not where I want to be, or even where I should be. There has to be something inside of you that will click in order to be a success. You'll do great! Keep up the good work. Oh, and congrats on that one piece of chicken!

  3. Congratulations on the 2 pounds!!! That is great! My mom is an emotional eater too. Since I know that she is, I pay close attention to make sure that I don't do the same thing. It is tough. I know you can do it! You are a strong girl! Keep it up!!!! :)